Hello, I’m back.

I have missed you.

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Have you forgotten about me?

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Such a strange thing to write. Many times I had been tempted to delete this blog.
I mean why not? it’s not like I write on here anymore.

I am glad I didn’t.

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I wish I had some good reasons for why I was gone for so long.
Why I had been neglecting my art, and why I had silenced my voice.
There is so much to say. So much to write about.

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Truth be told, these past months have been hard.
I fell a lot, and got up just as much.

I have learned that passed mistakes are best to be addressed, touched and understood.
Or you will most likely keep making them until you do so.

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I am excited to do this again.

If you have come this far. Thank you.
For being here.
For being one of those people who didn’t give up on this blog.

I hope you can relate to the new me just as you did the old one.

And if you are a new reader, welcome. You are in for a ride.

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New Challenge: 5AM Morning Routine

I can’t believe it has already been four days of this decade, and I have a lot of school work to get through. For this semester, let’s do things differently. This semester, let’s get a headstart on our day and see what we find in the early hours of the day.

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I have always loved this time of the day. They say only the lonely or the brokenhearted are up at 5AM.  I want to reclaim this hour of the day. Let’s do this together!

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Whether you have to work, study or simply get ready for the day ahead, set your alarm to 5am and be out of bed by 5:15. Hitting the snooze button is a bad habit I sadly enjoy a little too much in the morning. In order to make sure I wake up I plan my lazy morning correctly.

For starters, I plan to snooze for 15 minutes mindlessly in bed. I call this my gratitude time. We tend to focus a lot on what we don’t have.  I recommend having some time to reflect on what we do have.

To me, the first 15 minutes of my day are dedicated to this.
I am a religious person.  At this time I feel the most vulnerable, so this is when I like to give my thanks to God for all he has done for me.

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I like to have a dramatic alarm. This makes sure that I wake up, but when I do, I like reading encouraging messages from my phone. Be soft to yourself. How you speak to yourself is the foundation for how you will see yourself. So be kind.

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After my second alarm rings, typically at 5:15, I get up and make my way to the kitchen where depending on the day I either have cold-brewed or will make a hot pot of coffee.

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I have come to love cold drinks in the morning, I find it more refreshing upon waking up.

Even though the reason I wake up this early is to get some studying done, I like to use the next 45 minutes for my self. While sipping my first cup of coffee I like to read a book. Sometimes I read the bible or sometimes I’d read a book for fun. Currently, I am reading Moon Sisters by Lucinda Riley, but not this morning, this morning I am gathering my thoughts in this post.

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Typically I would have some me time until 6AM.
This is the time where I would stop whatever I’ve felt like doing this morning and get into the shower. I shower with cold water in the mornings. Nothing like a cold shower to wake up the body and soul from a good night sleep.

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After my cold shower, I’d get dressed, put on makeup and start a mini-study session before leaving for class at 8am.

I challenge you to get a headstart this way.
Maybe you will discover parts of yourself you didn’t know, in the quiet of the morning?
If you do, I would love to hear all about it!

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Send me a message on any of my social media about how the journey is going.
I’d love to be a part of this with you.

Until next time!
Good luck ✨
With love, Tia.

Goodbye 2019

I can hardly believe my last post was in October. Hey fam, I’m still alive!

This year has passed so fast, I can hardly believe it is already over. 2019 has been challenging in so many ways. Both mentally and physically, but for the first time since I can remember, I am quite content with this ending.

I’ve got about two hours to make this my last post of 2019, for any grammar errors I am deeply sorry.

Let’s start!
I would call 2019 as the year that taught me the beauty of challenges. Before I used to think “why me” but now, I have realised that a better approach to life is “let’s do this”.

This year, I have learned to travel. I have travelled to several cities in Europe. Both alone and in the company of friends. I learned to fend for my self and finally to accept difficult truth about my past. It’s funny how once you stop running away and decide to face challenges, they don’t seem that hard anymore.

This year I have learned to see challenges as an opportunity to grow. Mentally and physically. I made this blog and somewhat stuck to it. I poured my soul out into my poetry, something I found quite helpful in dealing with past traumas.
I laid my wounds bare for the whole world to see, and some saw. They saw my pain. Some understood and some… well I like to believe they’ve tried.

2019 taught me that I am no ordinary girl. I am also nothing special. I simply am different. It is okay for me to not follow the path everyone else is on.

Taking care of your physical appearance is not tied to a certain weight, or hair length or eye colour. Did you know? Anyone can benefit from “dolling up” from time to time. Whatever that means to you.
To me, this meant having beautifully manicured nails all year long, and recently, beautifully extended eyelash extensions too. A ritual of self-love. When life got a little too hard, or a little too much, I’d go to a beauty salon and get a fresh new pair of hands to deal with the issue ahead. A journey I promise to write about next.

This year I have learned that self-love is whatever you need it to be. For me, it started with getting lost in a foreign country all by my self.

Sadly, there where many lose too in 2019. I have lost a friend I thought was dear to my heart. The thing about self-love is that once you start to value yourself you start noticing people who don’t. Distancing yourself from such people is okay sometimes. As long as you do it calmly and with respect.

The way a person treats you is a reflection of an internal battle they have with themselves. Learn to analyse whether someone’s energy is matching yours at that time.

So what do I hope to find in 2020?

I hope to continue this emotional healing path I have embarked on. I hope to have more moments of laugh with strangers in strange places on this earth. I hope to finish my second year of pharmacy school passing all the challenges it has offers. I hope to learn how to take more care of my body physically and keep using my poetry as an outlet for my misunderstood emotions.

What kind of posts do I hope to make in 2020?

I promise those travel posts are finally coming your way. I am dying to show you all the pretty cities I have seen, and considering how I am not going to travel much before summer, this is a good time to dig them up. Also, a lot more pharma-school related though I think my Instagram will be more in charge of those, we will see. There are going to be a couple of posts about food, nutrition and simple dishes anyone can make. As well as my workout of the month. I think taking care of your body is important. Also, there will be lots more poetry coming your way, perhaps I dare to share more of my past with you guys.

In any case, I want to thank those of you who embarked on my first year as a blogger. Hopefully, you stick around for season two.

I wish you a happy new year’s fam